Fill ‘er up!

Just back from the doctors. They were running about 35mins late mind you! The waiting room was packed! To my joy just after I got there, a mum with two young boys came in, one of them screaming his box off. He wanted a dummy you see and mum didn’t have one. Then he wanted to ride a tractor (WTF?). Then he wanted the dummy again and then to ride a tractor. Dummy. Tractor. Dummy.Tractor [my head explodes].  Think GB and I may have to rethink this whole having kids caper.

Anyhoo, when I finally got in to see Bowater, he said I was looking much better than I was before to which I replied “amazing what happens when you sleep through the night and don’t throw up every meal! But I’m not happy”. I explained to him the situation and he nodded and said that he’s had the same conversation four times today. That for some reason it actually seems to get harder to find the right fill balance towards the end of “journey” than whilst you’re on it. He wished he had some reason for it but he hasn’t worked it out yet! So he offered me 0.5ml which I said I was reluctant to go to because I was worried about going back to the night reflux, PBing area which he understood and so we settled at 0.25mls and will review it in 4 weeks. According to his scales I’ve put on 1.6kgs since seeing him 7 weeks ago. I’ve actually just realised I’ve made my next appointment for 5 weeks time but oh well. To be honest, if I don’t see an improvement in a couple of weeks I’ll be pounding on the door for an earlier appointment anyway. I hope this fill has put me back into sweet spot town though.

Actually I did feel restriction nearly immediately (sort of). I was super hungry going in there, tummy rumbling and all that, and as soon as the fill was in, nothing – felt like I’d eaten! Awesomesauce.

Date night tonight and my turn to take GB out for dinner. I’m sooo broke though so we’re off to Siena’s in Leederville (Thank you very much entertainment book voucher!) which is BYO. Might start at The Oxford for a couple of bevvies before dinner. Going to have to be careful tonight though – got to get back into the habit of tiny bites and chewing – something which lately I haven’t needed to do and so have slipped back into “normal” eating.

Have to gloat about some exercise feats this week. On Tuesday GB decided to run to his friends place (18kms!) and ride his bike back so that inspired me to thinking, “Maybe I could run a bit today”. So after work I drove down to Burswood and took off around the bridges. It’s usually 7kms but I took a shortcut (hehe) so it was about 6.3kms according to my iphone app. Anyway I ran my little heart out. And by “ran”, I mean I shuffled ever so slightly faster than my usual walk speed! I had a strong head wind pretty much the whole way (How does that happen when you’re going in a circle?!). I slowed to a walk 3 times for 300-400m each time but that meant that I ran just over 5kms all up! Amazement!

Then yesterday, GB had run to work (he works across the road from me) but was too buggered to run home so he took my car and I walked to the gym (about 2.5kms), did 30mins on HR trainer on bike at the gym, then walked the rest of the way home (about 6.5kms). All up it was 1hr50 worth of exercise and nearly 800 calories burned according to my HR monitor watch – which admittedly isn’t too accurate. But my heart rate when walking was averaging around 130 which is pretty good.

And gorgeous weather in Perth finally! Going to dust of the bikes and take them for a spin tomorrow I think!

Have a super weekend,

Em

Countdown to Fill time

I’m hanging out for a fill.. I needs it .. I wants it…

Here’s why – I’m hungry an hour after I’ve eaten, I wake up hungry, all I can think about is FOOD, I can’t stay out of the fridge or cupboard, I’m eating too quickly, I’m eating too much, I’m eating too much crap and (and here’s the clincher) I’M PUTTING ON WEIGHT!

So you can see I really do need a fill – all the signs are there.

The question is – how much?

In the back of my mind still remains the horribleness of everything I eat getting stuck, of night reflux, of waking up choking, of spending more time than I ever care to in the toilet, of being to frightened to eat anything at anyone’s house or going out to dinner. I never want to get back to that stage again. But I clearly need some fill. I just want enough to control the hunger and portions but not so much so that I can’t drink water again. I’m still 1 ml down from having the 2mls removed in August so I definately don’t want 1ml in. I’m thinking somewhere between 0.25ml and 0.5ml. I guess I’ll see what Bowater says about it.

To get back into the right frame of mind I’m joining into the “Spring into Summer” 6 week challenge over at We Are Slimming starting next week. If anyone else out there is interested, make sure you head over there and sign up! I’ll post my goals and results here as well.

OK well I’d better do some work.

Cheerio chaps!

Quick update

Hey kids,

Sorry I’ve been absent for a couple weeks. To recap:

Last Wednesday saw Bowater again. I told him in the 2 weeks since having the fill removed I’ve been HUNGRY HUNGRY HUNGRY!!! Food portions increasing, looking for food, thinking about food, food food food…. So he’s put in 1ml again. So far not too bad, have a bit of restriction again and not quite as hungry so happy with that. I did work out like a mad woman for those 2 weeks, doing between an hour and 2 hrs a day at the gym (did a combat class and a step class which is way too complicated for my liking!) According to the docs scales I stayed the same in those two weeks however the first time I weighed in it was like 5pm and this time it was 8.30am so I know there was a bit of damage there. Still floating in the 78’s.

Pata Negra (the new tapas place we went to a couple of weeks ago) was really great but way pricey. Still prefer Duende.

Wedding stuff – My sisters and I went bridesmaid dress shopping last weekend and they bought their dresses so that’s all sorted. After 2 weeks and about 10 rejections from hair/makeup people in Margaret River and me getting so stressed out that the fiance was freaking out too, it finally all worked out. The very first one I’d called said she wasn’t taking bookings because they may be moving interstate. Then I saw her ad reappear on a website so I sent a message to see if her circumstances had changed and they had so we’re all booked in!! Best thing is that during the week she actually lives in the city so we can do our trials up here without having to track the 3.5hrs south. Awesomesauce. I have also setup a whiteboard listing everything that needs to be done in the next 6 months. I’ll take a pic.. hehehe

I’ve also been sick since pretty much last Monday. Had a killer sore throat Mon-Wed and then the congestion and coughing started so have been off work since Thursday. I was really pissed because it was the 12km city to surf on Sunday and I planned to run parts of it. I managed to pull myself together and actually do the 12kms – and not an easy 12km either we’re talking 3 major hills and not a lot of it being flat. The last time I did it 2 years ago (and 20+kgs heavier) my time was about 2hrs 15mins. Yesterday I did it in 1hr55mins and that was being sick!!! My hip flexors and calves were sore yesterday but not bad today. GB ran most of it (had to keep stopping for people in his way and to let his mate catch up) so he did it in just over an hour. What a champ. Definately going to train for it next year and try to run the bloody thing! Just waiting now for the official results to go up on the net.

Anyhoo, hopefully will catch up on everyone’s blogs soon!

Em